32 weeks

Oh the joys of pregnancy. I love waking up 33 times a night to pee, tend to charlie horses or trying to find yet another pillow. I'm pretty sure I'm up to 6 plus a body pillow now!
In all seriousness- Friday morning, I was woken up by the baby, having hiccups. I love it. I won't miss much about being pregnant, but I'll for sure miss feeling him wiggle and hiccup, and flip.
I have an appointment Monday morning-and I'm pretty sure (if I'm doing it at home correctly) I'm still measuring ahead. He's going to be so big. I can not believe I'm about to have a human come out of my lady parts. ewwwww The good news? Still no stretchmarks. The bad news? The baby's weight is going to double at this point, meaning I'm going to be getting some crazy looking ones I think.
I'm also beginning to worry that I'm not going to know what to do once I have him. I think that's a normal fear- but I'm so overwhelmed by this all- since I'll be riding solo.

I had a family meet Daizy a week ago. Last night, she had a sleep over at their house. They have the male version of her. She did well, and they've decided they would like to have her. I asked to keep her for one more week, so I can say good bye. I dont know if that's being selfish or not, but I can't let her go just yet. The good news is, these people go out of town often, and I'll be able to have her on those days. They seem like great dog people. They let the dogs on the couch and bed, and they give them table food... so it wont be much of a shock to the Dazer. I still just couldn't stop crying today once I picked her up and they said they wanted her. I then proceeded to have a huge pity party for myself, and went on to make some serious decisions as to what is going to happen when LJ gets here. Don't even ask how its related- pregnant brain wins.

He flys in the 14th, I'm being induced the 15th, and I assume we'll be home the 17th(ish).
He is ONLY welcome to stay in my home on THOSE days. It will just be too much for me to deal with. I will let him in the delivery room, but only because I feel as the father, he deserves that. But, because of that, I'm totally having my mom in the room with me. Maybe my sister. We'll see how I feel about that when the time comes.
I just don't want anymore stress than necessary..I think he's put me through enough of that within the last week.

Getting WIDE..no more room to go out!

Beach Ball Belly

Someone I knew in Texas has a blog, and I totally stole this last picture from her blog... but really? How fitting is that?

I'm really hoping that he doesn't do this to our son.

He's a constant disappointment, constantly breaks promises, and constantly lies about things I already know about.

I can deal with it-- I don't want to, but I can.

But I can't deal with him making my son feel this way. He assures me it will never happen because he "actually cares about Nic" (awesome to know he doesn't give 2 shits about me) but I just dont think this is fair anymore. I can't deal with the stress... how am I supposed to deal with him in MY house for 15 days?

oh my gosh...62 days left... 52 till induction..... seriously??? I cant not believe this. I'm going to freak out pretty soon here...

31 weeks (or so I think....)

Wellllll-- it's hot. Like, really really really hot, and I'm not a fan. To stay inside, I've been doing the following fun activities:

Eating delicious 6 layer chocolate cake on dates with Monica and Caida.

Making cupcakes for Monica's daughter's first birthday party!
Watching Monica make fun of Kentuckians/Oklahomans

Laughing at the irony of license plates

Lounging around with Daizy (who is meeting a new family tomorrow, and it's making me burst into tears every 31 minutes)

And taking belly shots-- oh and getting my hair chopped off! I'm hoping it grows 2 inches by the time I give birth. I can't put it in a pony tail, so... it needs to get a little longer, or I'll cry.
Everything is going so well, minus my lack of sleep, but that's normal at this point I think. I really am very lucky. I mean, I am gaining a little more weight than I wanted, but still, it's less than other girls I've asked. Never really had morning sickness... my feet aren't super swollen (a little one time, but it was because I was standing too much) and the baby moves and his little heart beat is perfect, and I just love him. :] No diabetes, even though I should.. haha, I eat more candy than anyone I know.

I just can't believe how fast this has happened. I'm going to be having him so soon, I wanna explode.

LJ's mom got his ticket (thank god! I was so stressed about that)- so he'll be here Sept 14th so we can get everything situated for the 15th.. I'm so nervous for that. We are mostly civil, but I mean... we're getting a divorce for a reason.. I just hope that we don't fight too much while he's here. I also hope he is helpful, not just something to stress over, and lazy... baahaha like he wont be lazy. That was funny. But I mean, I just need some freggin help. He better do it, or his ass will NOT be staying with me and my little baby. :]

It's alright, I love the way you lie.

31 weeks....?

Ugh- I just got back from the doctor's office, and I'm measuring a week ahead. Apparently that's normal. She didn't change my due date or anything, but it still it a bit unnerving.I'm going to give birth to a giant.

She scheduled me to be induced on Sept 15th, for sure... but I don't even know if I want to do that anymore, because I'm irritated as hell right now, because apparently people that are assfaces can only be nice for 5 days in a row, then they have to return to being shitbags.

Some things remain a mystery....

30 weeks :]

Well. 30 weeks and I'm certainly feeling it. I am just so ready to get this guy out of me, and hold him! I have everything set up, I just need to organize it, and I'll be done. I keep putting it off, because I have so much longer to do the little stuff.... and I think I went a little crazy. Now all I need to do is get my car ready. If I even keep my car that is... I just don't know what to do about that. It's really stressing me out. Also? One more reason I'm like a cow. And that's crazy, and I feel like it's waaaay too soon, but at least I know I don't have to worry about that I guess. It was really quite awkward though.


Last night, Monica and I did a little thing called a 3 mile walk. It was amazing, until I started waddling like a dang duck. I blame my dog for pulling me-thus making me use more muscle- but I have no proof. I do have proof of her eating something during the walk though, because at 3:30 in the morning, she puked by my bed, and that was SO fun to clean!!! Bending is not as easy as it used to be, so it took me a very long time to clean. Gross.

My mom and aunt fought over my belly today. I dont think I want them in the same room once the little guy comes out.




I like how pitiful Daizy looks in this picture. What I dont like is the mess that is all over my kitchen table. Why is it so messy? Because my damn cat knocked over my bowl that my WHOLE house is themed for, broke it, and everything that was on the chair went on the table. Thanks a lot Jazmine... thanks a lot.

2 more months!!

Seriously- I feel like someone kicked me in the crotch as hard as possible. WTF is that about!? Apparently its either just ligament pain and everything getting ready.... or... and I really hope it's not because..yuck... gross... but varicose veins. Sorry about the TMI but if anyone else has gone through this, wtf do I do to help the pain?!

aaaaaaand my feet are killing me! Exactly 2 months left... come on-- do these last 2 have to be awful?

I think the feet thing is my own fault. I go on epic walks with Daizy and I wear flip flops.

So you think I'll be alright
And I'll forget you in time
And I won't want you here with me every night
And we can still be friends once in a while

Think again
'Cause maybe you're wrong
How can I just be friends
With someone I've loved for so long

3d/4d US [Nic]

AGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I seriously can not believe how much my son is going to look like his dad. All I can say is, he better have my coloring....

I seriously can not wait for tomorrow morning!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

29 weeks!

I have 10 weeks left. Less actually. I can not believe this!!!!!!!!!!! I feel ready.. but then when I think about it actually happening, I FTFO ( freak the fuck out ).My mom and aunt said they expect me to double in belly size.. and I really hope they were kidding.... Because I do not think I can deal with that. i can't even paint my toe nails anymore. I literally can not bend over unless I like, squat!!! I seriously am excited for Tuesday though! It's the big ultra sound day! I'm so freaking excited to see this little guy's face! I just am dying to know if he looks like me or LJ.

I'm just about done with the nursery... I can't understand why I'm so crazy to finish it now, when I clearly have a lot of time left, but I guess I just want to get it done, and then perfect it.. Because while I have everything in the dresser, washed and folded, it's not organized as well as I'd like it to be. I got 8 bins today in green and blue, and so now, I just need to get the book shelf to hold them all in. For now, I think they'll be holding the extra diapers and burp cloths and clothes (he has A TON) and then later for like, cars and such. I need to get him a toy chest. Seriously... the kid is a SRB already. :] yay!

It's really too hot to be pregnant. I already am cranky when it's hot. Add 20 pounds, raging hormones and humidity to the mix, and it's not very pleasant. It's really just miserable here. I am thinking if I ever decide to do this again, I'll be in Alaska for the 9 months.


And for all you antsy folks..... I made this the other day. But seriously! No more nursery pictures until I'm done!

shit.

better days are gonna get better

I'm feeling like a star, you can't stop my shine,
I'm loving cloud nine, my head's in the sky,
I'm solo, I'm riding solo,
I'm riding solo, I'm ridin solo, sooloooo.

Yeah, I'm feeling good tonight, finally doing me and it feels so right, oh,
Time to do the things I like,
going to the club everything's alright, oh,

No one to answer to,
no one that's gonna argue, no,
And since I got the hold off me,
I'm living life now that I'm free, yeah,

Telling me to get my shit together
now I got my shit together, yeah,
Now I made it through the weather
better days are gonna get better

I'm so sorry that it didn't work out I'm moving on,
I'm so sorry but it's over now,
the pain is goooone,

I'm putting on my shades
to cover up my eyes,
I'm jumpin' in my ride,
I'm heading out tonight,
I'm solo, I'm riding solo,
I'm riding solo, I'm riding solo, sooloooo.
I'm feeling like a star, you can't stop my shine,
I'm loving cloud nine, my head's in the sky.
I'm solo, I'm riding solo,
I'm riding solo, I'm riding solo, sooloooo.

Now I'm feeling how I should,
never knew single could feel this good, oh,
Stop playing miss understood,
back in the game, who knew I would, oh,
So flex how I spread my wings, loving myself makes me wanna sing, oh,
Oh yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah,

Telling me to get my shit together
now I got my shit together, yeah,
Now I made it through the weather
better days are gonna get better

I'm so sorry that it didn't work out I'm moving on,
I'm so sorry but it's over now,
the pain is goooone,

I'm putting on my shades
to cover up my eyes,
I'm jumpin' in my ride,
I'm heading out tonight,
I'm solo, I'm riding solo,
I'm riding solo, I'm riding solo, sooloooo.
I'm feeling like a star, you can't stop my shine,
I'm loving cloud nine, my head's in the sky.
I'm solo, I'm riding solo, I'm riding solo, I'm riding solo, sooloooo.
I'm riding solo, I'm riding solo, sooloooo

yeah it's like S... O... L... O...
S... O... L... O... S... O... L... O...
Living my life and got stress no more,

I'm putting on my shades
to cover up my eyes,
I'm jumpin' in my ride,
I'm heading out tonight,
I'm solo, I'm riding solo,
I'm riding solo, I'm riding solo, sooloooo.
I'm feeling like a star, you can't stop my shine,
I'm loving cloud nine, my head's in the sky.
I'm solo, I'm riding solo, I'm riding solo, I'm riding solo, sooloooo.
I'm riding solo, I'm riding solo, sooloooo

I'm riding solo, sooloooo,
I'm riding solo, sooloooo.

I swear to God-- I hate nothing in the world as much as I hate when people lie to me.

he's such a dick.

4th of Jew-Lie

I
Love
Fireworks
:]

28 weeks

Not only am I fully moved in (minus like, 8 boxes of my shoes, and hanging my art and TV) but I am officially done shopping for the baby! LJ wants to get the wipe warmer for the little one, but that's about it.:] I got the bassinet and crib mattress, and the changing pad yesterday, and last week, the little Nona and Papa Shoe to-be, got the crib for him... and then the baby shower swag-- I can't believe how much I have! The room is just a huge mess right now, and when MY nona came over, she about died because it was so cluttered.... but oh well. I'm in the process of nesting... step one? Buy out Target. Seriously. Babies R Us and Target completely furnished my baby's little room. My dad painted the crib wall brown (and wrote the baby's name on every wall he painted..haha),


and I got little vinal stickies in brown and blue for the other walls, and I just need to get the right color green for the curtains, and his room will be done... I mean, obviously I need to put the crib together and wash all the clothes, but that's it!

As for the rest of the house... it's crazy. I have the cat and dog here, and honestly, I'm going crazy. I LOVE my dog. I really do. She's my little baby, but-- there's no way I can keep both her and the cat. And I'd get rid of my cat before Daizy normally, but it's just so small here, and while she pees on our walks, she wont poo, and thats just not good. The only problem is when the baby comes, I can't just take her on as many walks as I am now, so it's freaking me out. I might be re-homing her to my aunt's friend or her BiL-- but I just don't know. I want to have her stay in the family, so I can still see her. It's really breaking my heart. I'm really worried about it, because I spoil the shit out of her-- and I dont know that anyone else will do that. :[
Every time I think of it, I cry hystericly, and think of that ASPCA commercial where Sarah Mclaughlin sings and you see the dogs in cages and they're starving and shit, and it kills me. I can't just get a family for Daizy that's going to ignore her. I need someone that loves her as much as I do. And seriously, people are suggesting that I just give her to the humane society. All I can say to those people is "kindly go F yourself" because it's like giving away one of your kids. Don't be assholes folks.

Pregnancy wise, everything is really amazing. The only complaint I have is how easily I become over heated, and I gained a lot of weight last time I went to the doctor, and I can really feel it. In my feet. I need to hire a little asian lady to just give me pedis like, every night. haha... but..... The little guy is moving around normally now, and has a schedule, which is amazing. I am really curious to see if he'll be active at the same times once he's born. I am pretty sure I'm going to go get the 4-d US soon. I think there might be one here in Tucson, but if not, Phx has a ton of places for that, and I just really reaaaaaaaaaaaaaaalllllllly want to know who he looks like. I really think he's going to look more like LJ but I hope he has some of my looks. At least my coloring... and eyebrows. God I hope he has my eye brows. LJ's are awful. And I hope he has my ears. seriously.



I am always amazed on how big I am... My friend's dad told me every week when he sees me I look bigger, and I mean...duh. But I never feel that much bigger.

27 weeks

Moving in 105 degree weather while 27 weeks pregnant simply isn't conducive to my "i hate being hot" life rule... but being 27 weeks is insane. I'm amazed how fast everything is progressing, and how much my little boy moves! It's INSANE!

But... I'm all moved in now! Pictures to come later... but for now-- I'm missing seeing my feet. :]

Also-- not having internet was awful-- hence the week late post-- but I just wanted to get week 27's pictures up